God Told Me to Skin You Alive

Michael. 20 years old. Living in Tempe, AZ. I like punk rock, anime, comics and old movies, which basically my blog in summation. I also have a condition called "alopecia areata" and have been diagnosed since I was two. Let's be friends!

I have nothing to apologize for because I did nothing wrong.

I miss falling asleep and waking up next to someone.

I honestly don’t think I can love again for a long time. If that ever happens, I think I deserve someone who isn’t going to take my love for granted.

I hope you don’t get “bored” with this next guy and cheat on him, too.

Just sayin’…

Have a good one.

Unfortunately, part of me still cares about you. But I can’t afford to hurt myself again.

I’m going to go on a short rant.

You know what? I’m sorry I’m so clingy and affectionate. I guess that’s what happens when you grow up with abandonment issues. My dad walked out on me when I was eight years old. Maybe if I never knew him, I wouldn’t be so needy. But I was eight, so my memory is too clear. Whenever I get close to people, I always try to do everything in my power to please them or make them happy and I get clingy because I’m always afraid of losing them. That’s just how I’ve grown up. But I suppose I should be used to people doing that.

Irony.

That one person that makes you the happiest can also make you the most miserable.

If you’re reading this, you know who you are. You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever had the chance to set my eyes on. I think about you every damn day and every time I see a picture of you I can’t help but think about how beautiful you are and how much I miss you. Every time I see a picture of you, it makes me remember and smile, no matter how shitty things are right now. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone or anything ever. I wish I could say I moved on, but I haven’t, and we all know that’s not gonna happen. I’m not asking you to change your mind or do anything. I just want you to know how much I think about you and I hope you’re happy, where ever you go in life. Because that’s all I could ever want. I’m not gonna lie. I cried the whole time I was typing this. I needed to get this out. I’m sorry for rambling. I’m done.